why do i care so much
when ultimately you don't even care.
why do i care so much
when you call me insensitive?

why should i bother
when you don't even appreciate it
why should i bother
why you call me defensive

why should i respond
when you are always finding fault in me
why should i respond
when you think i have an attitude problem

why should i reply
when you treat every one of them redundant
why should i reply
when you scrutinise with sarcasm

why should i take the trouble
when you find me a nuisance
why should i take the trouble
when obviously you take it forgranted

i don't expect anything in return
im just trying to help
im just trying to be concerned
im just a perfectly normal girl

im imperfect
im insensitive
im a horrid girl
im just someone who everyone hates

since you couldn't care less
since you are so apathetic
since you are so cynical
forget it.

im always in the wrong
im always at fault
im sorry
im sure you wouldn't want me to bother you again

and im sure you'll be amazed at my attitude once again

to everyone else: im sorry for this entry. im sorry if i was insensitive in any way. im sorry if you felt like this person does of me. but i thank you for encouraging me, for cheering me up, for being there for me and for not taking me forgranted. yk, suzy, danitza, jovel, celine, zhixin, jia lin, jia yu and everyone else. thank you so much. you really made my day.