Yesterday was an absolutely long and busy day for me. Saturday was a exhasting experience and the fatigue dragged till sunday.

went for 8's service and then had funfair. And poor me was in the same stall as zhiming. ah yo. he's so clumsy. kept dripping the drinks. haha. thankfully we both survived the funfair with quite a lot of profit for the church. it was fun nevertheless, i ate a lot. jaz's gonna grow fatter. beehoon, burger, pancakes, sausages, chicken rice, etc. oh my. haha.

after the funfair, had christmas rehearsal. it was so amusing and entertaining really. i always love to be a tabernacle player. the experience is just so memorable. Anyway if you all wanna watch, it's on christmas day. 5pm at Crystal Tabernacle. (357 pasir panjang rd) ask me for directions and i'll be more than happy to give you. :)

Dinner at night. it was my dad's birthday. it's a pity i missed out the youth's bbq though. oh well. Had dinner as a WHOLE family finally. Intially there was this china man that my dad was going to bring to OUR family dinner, and i was really irritated but well he didn't come in the end.

sometimes i wish my dad was more sensitive. he's never around. when he is, he'll order me ard and make me serve him.
Sometimes, i wish he was never like that.
Sometimes i can't be bothered.
Sometimes i feel as if im fatherless cos he's always so caught up in his temple, his work but never abt the family.

Whenever i tell him i haven't seen him for ages, he'll just smile. i need an answer. i need a proper family. i need a father that cares.

God, help me.
and the tears slowly fell.