Last night
It all ended.

Somehow, it seems it was just yesterday when I first joined.
Till now, I never really knew why I joined debate. I never understood how I made it through the auditions. Perhaps, it was just a mistake.

Charitas04, VJs04, VJs05, space debates05, NCs05, NCs06, HCs05, Mayors’05, JGs05 & JGs06. That was a mouthful. They were all important milestones and not forgetting interclass debates in 2004. (Where Dan and Kristi joined debate)

Through these years, I’ve learnt important lessons, made many great friends, perhaps more outspoken and maybe improved a little.

Disappointments, Losses, Unfairness,
I’ve realised things don’t always go the way it should.
Sometimes trying to give your all,
Doesn’t really warrant success.
Ultimately, the verdict depends on the adjudicators.

Exhilaration, Wins, Ecstasy,
It was always temporal.
Winning seemed everything in the past,
But I realise it was not anymore.

The team I cherished so much,
The cca I was blamed for spending so much time on,
The trainings full of laughter,
My dearest cousin,
Was all that kept me going.

I’ve cried. I’ve laughed.
The tears, the joy.
After the sun, the rain
After the rain, the sun.
This is what life is about.

Sometimes I wonder why no matter how hard I try,
how much I give,
how much I really wanted just to speak or the win,
my hopes always gets shattered.

Every now and then,
I asked God:
“Why did you plant me here? I don’t have the capability.”
He just answered,
“Trust me. For everything I do, there’s a reason behind it.”

I give thanks.
For SCDS I love so much,
For lis, yk, dan, kristi
For suzy, april, grace, aletheia,
For the juniors,
For the coaches,
For Mrs Tan and Mrs Quek,
For the other debaters,
For my cousin,
For my family,
For my church friends,
For my schoolmates,
For SCGS,
For the debates,
For the trainings,
For the debriefs,
For the prayers.
Sometimes I forgot all these were For God.

I wish all of these wouldn’t have to end last night or rather in ncs for me.
I wish they had more hope in me.
I wish lis didn’t have to leave sc.
I wish I didn’t have to leave sc debate.

But now, it’s over.

2 years+ in SC Debate
2 years+ in a team I love
it was an amazing experience

thank you everyone.