IT'S the WEEKEND. and it's nearly over.
time passes so fast, it's scary.

it's 44 days to o'level chem prac/prelims part 1
and
it's 4 months to o'levels.
4 is a such a horrible number seriously.

I have not been studying because i've been lazy, lack of motivation, tempted to do other things, and really busy. i seriously need to settle down and start mugging.

played water games ytd for fellowship again and i got really drenched because of dear eugene chan and zhiming. But it's okay cos they willingly sat down and allowed me to pour a tub of 'dirty' water on them.

today's altar call was a really meaningful one because it was about something close to each and everyone's hearts, family.

Family is such an important factor in every life. So much that it affects our thinking, behaviour and our lifestyle. Whatever that happens to one individual, it affects the entire family because we're all connected by blood, by ties.

It's this interdependency which makes a family so different and special from the rest of the humans. Because God had specially chosen and bonded a family. Ironically this interdependency somehow will cause resentment, hurt, pain, and anger when not taken into serious consideration by one selfish individual.

But as time passes by, perhaps this whirl of harsh emotions may diminish, but the emotional impact has caused a scar to be left behind forever.

I know God will heal the wound in time to come, till then it stays an open wound where sometimes people accidentally rub salt into it. and it hurts; badly.

Or perhaps it's just me. i think i am too emotional. it's like every time i think abt it, i just can't control my emotions and the tears fall. it was to the extent of before i could finish saying what i had to say abt my prayer request to pastor beetin, i just burst out crying.

Well, today the prayer cut right through to the core of my heart. though i hate to admit to these feelings i have, it's only benefitial when i come clean and face up to it.

it's a God given calling. i have to face it. i need to face it. oh God, help me.

Thank God i have the rest of my wonderful family behind me. Thank God i have the whole body of Christ with me. Thank God because He loves me and
His love conquers all.

slowly, but surely, i know i can do it with my Heavenly Father's help.