my life has been revolving around eating, sleeping and mugging. And that results in a empty and meaningless life that is nothing but pure mundane. I do have some life when i talk online, blog, watch a bit of tv during dinner, and go to church, but it's really rare.

Anyway i've been feeling rather empty and void. Nothing could been done about it somehow. I simply had no motivation or concentration to study at some pt, i just wanted to rant and scream to someone. With suggestions to gaze at the non-existent stars in the bright skyline of singapore, listen to psychology talks, bounce ard, and my own idea of drinking hot chocolate was crushed because someone reminded me to watch the weighing machine:(

Had lunch with sarah today, had a long talk to her and we studied together after that. the church library is a good place to study:)

Saturday @ 7 was a total change today. I could just simply say i'm really emotional about it. It was an emotional rollercoaster for me. I got really hyper and high during praise. then pastor geoffrey ministered with "Oh mighty cross" which put me in a solemn mood to reflect because this song means a lot to me, it was what God gave me during a church camp a few years back. Then it was response hymn which i happily thought it was worship, and i was going into deep worship when it got disrupted again. somehow i really feel that a decent time set aside for praise and worship is essential. Sermon by pastor david was good and meaningful. Then altar call/counselling, i feel that this time is very important too but yet people could just leave because the service ended.

Oh well. i know it is to receive the revival of the church. i know it is to facilitate evangelical purposes. i know all these. but i just can't help but feel disappointed because worship really means a lot to me. I feel that being in touch with spiritual worship is so essential to an individual's growth! And worshipping as an entire family makes it even more meaningful! Then again, it is what i feel, others may not feel the same way.

i need time to adapt to changes. i need to view it with a more positive attitude. i need to fill this void in my life right now. i need to really come and humble myself to bow down and worship. i need God.

oh God, help me.

People need the Lord

Everyday they pass me by
I can see it in their eyes
Empty people filled with care
Headed who knows where
On they go through private pain
living fear to fear
Laughter hides their silent cries
only Jesus hears

People need the lord(x2)
At the end of broken dreams
He's the open door

People need the Lord(x2)
When will we realise
people need the Lord

We are called to take His light
To a world when wrong seems right
What could be too great a cost
For sharing lives with one who's lost
Though this love our hearts can feel
All the grief they bear
They must hear the words of life
Only we can share

People need the Lord (x2)
When will we realise
that we must give our lives
People need the Lord

good night everyone