The guilt of not studying ever since the prelims ended, is killing me. So i'm gonna start studying HOPEFULLY tonight and get my study timetable ironed out.

And i will be studious, dilligent and mug mug mug. I know i won't do well for prelims because of my carelessness and the inherant psychological problem that is entrenched in me every exam. It causes me to panic and freak out during the paper and i do not know how to do the easiest question. yup, especially for emath/amath.

I've got about 23 days to bio O's prac
37 days to chem prac
39 days to the papers
53 days to FREEDOM.

trust me, time will fly so fast, the Big O's will come in no time. Hang in there and it will be fine.

So i've been slacking, writing an expository that was my previous entry, watching a movie, wandering on the streets, discovering that im ancient because all the shops have changed, lots of tv and internet and absolutely no serious mugging.

Been pretty busy and caught up because all the duties and responsibilities just hit me after the prelims. Jon's leaving tonight and im sure we'll miss him. Other than that, i was pretty excited to return to Children's Church after disappearing for so long because i was on study break. I really miss the kids so much. Had teachers' children's challenge today and though there was a bit of discipline problem, it was fun overall. Sadly, i will only be around for another week which is on Children's Day and then off i'll be to study again.

Well, results will be out from tomorrow onwards and though i hope i wont be disappointed that badly, i'm pretty fearful i would. Let's just cross out fingers, say a little prayer and you'll be fine. It will definitely be God's grace whatever it is, fail, pass or a good score.

For those people who are having exams, going to have exams, do cling on and study and know that someone here has to study for 6 more weeks while you only have to for about 2 weeks. All the best everyone and happy studying(:

God bless:)

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you know what happens when one's stressed? one goes mad and starts venting anger at anyone. im sorry. right now, im just really really scared that im gonna fail my prelims. sometimes this fear just grips you so tight, you just don't feel like doing anything but cry. And i hate myself for being so emotional. oh God, just take me away from this fear and reality of the world.