this is how stressed and frustrated i am. when diaryland requested me to type in my username, i typed in my matric no. -.- this is the result of spending too much time on nus's IVLE>.<

oh well.

life as a uni student hasn't been easy at all. never-ending readings, stupid tests (i don't know what better way to call it), horrendously-high average scores of the cohort which makes me feel dumber than ever, and all in all, it's been making feel miserable):

it doesn't help when my mum/sis is being far too protective and not letting me go anywhere in this world with my friends, just because im not going with an adult. how long would it take for them to realise it's useless to control everything? how long would it take for them to recognise i'm no longer the little girl that i used to be? it's like keeping a bird, who needs to expand its wings to see the horizons, in a cage! if they don't let it go, when will it ever learn to fly? they expect me to be independent yet they don't give me the freedom. it's becoming illogical and pointless to me, if not ridiculous.

it's funny really how sometimes they don't even think i'll be safe alone in my own house. when other times, they take a risk and pray i'll be fine. so why can't it be the same case when i go overseas? nowhere in this world is safe anyway. (but obviously i know my limits)

i'm tired of trying to be an adult yet be their little daughter/sister who is forced to grow up yet ironically, can't.

i'm tired of all this.
i need to break free.
i seriously need a getaway.

alright i've ranted enough,
time to get back to reality and do my work.